Happiness to me had always been a social construct, a figment of my imagination, heck, I spent the better part of my childhood arguing that happiness could not have been real. It is clearer now, clearer because, I never truly felt it, hence the reason for my thought process. But now? I can confidently say now that I'm happy! Happy because I'm in a place now where , more than ever, I am confident in myself (again), I am very self aware, I know what I want and getting to this point, I can say emphatically is one of the channels to my happiness.If you have been following me for a while now, you will notice that I have strayed away (just a tad bit) from my usual content, that is because I've had a pretty rough and sad year, let me walk you through it:-I quit my job this year.-I officially put my business on hold this year.-I felt a great deal of emotional pain this year.-I owed money this year.-I had 3 accidents this year.-I became homeless this year.-I almost always went from one bad news to the other this year.-My anxiety hit the roof this year.-I was also quite broke this year.This year was practically my worst year so far, so dare I say, I hit rock bottom and tough as it may sound, I think I needed that.I think I needed that because I needed the chaos to end. I needed to be deliberate. I needed things to stop not working out. I needed calm and stability and you know when your back is finally against the wall, the only other way to go is what? FORWARD.I took all the tragedy I experienced as a driving force to do better, so everyday since the 1st of January this year has been a learning curve for me. I woke up everyday, saying deliberately to myself, you're going to do better tonight than you did in the morning. Along this bitter-sweet journey, I have met amazing people, some of which I've fallen out with, yet, I'm grateful that our paths crossed. I have reached out to people (as many as I can remember) who I've hurt in the past and I have tried to fix things. Hitting rock bottom basically helped me focus on all the areas of my life that needed adjusting. I can say without an iota of doubt that the intentional, however painful journey of 9 months has finally come to an end and the only reason I'm sharing this here, is because why not? If I could share the bad and stories, why not share the good ones? That way, you have a wholesome feel of me. The probable question on your mind is, now that I say that I have experienced happiness, can I tell the difference between where I was and where I am now? Absolutely! I am in such a stable place; stable mentally and stable emotionally and to me, that is all that matters because that is something I had hoped to achieve for a long time now.This was my story before the big brother house: The story I told in the house that got me in trouble, lol, the story that got me labeled with so many funny and colourful names but one thing is clear; going to the big brother house coupled with my story earlier this year only equates one thing for me and that is MISSION ACCOMPLISHED.Adekunle healed, Adekunle grew, Adekunle overcame, Adekunle rediscovered himself and Adekunle became better.I will leave you with this and I hope you take it to heart because I’m a living testimony (which is what I asked God for the most this year). To as many of you on your own individual journey, trying to figure things out but it seems like there is no headway, or even if you are trying to find your own happiness, DO NOT GIVE UP! As long as you stay true to yourself, and the course, you'll surely get there. One thing again is sure asides death and taxes, The road to finding self is yet a long one ahead, and the journey to self discovery is one you have to take on your own.P.S: as TASKUNLE, LOL, man's not broke anymore, and my story has changed.Thanks for reading. I remain the Elder-statesman.
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9th July, 2022
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Happiness to me had always been a social construct, a figment of my imagination, heck, I spent the better part of my childhood arguing that happiness could not have been real. It is clearer now, clearer because, I never truly felt it, hence the reason for my thought process. But now? I can confidently say now that I'm happy! Happy because I'm in a place now where , more than ever, I am confident in myself (again), I am very self aware, I know what I want and getting to this point, I can say emphatically is one of the channels to my happiness.If you have been following me for a while now, you will notice that I have strayed away (just a tad bit) from my usual content, that is because I've had a pretty rough and sad year, let me walk you through it:-I quit my job this year.-I officially put my business on hold this year.-I felt a great deal of emotional pain this year.-I owed money this year.-I had 3 accidents this year.-I became homeless this year.-I almost always went from one bad news to the other this year.-My anxiety hit the roof this year.-I was also quite broke this year.This year was practically my worst year so far, so dare I say, I hit rock bottom and tough as it may sound, I think I needed that.I think I needed that because I needed the chaos to end. I needed to be deliberate. I needed things to stop not working out. I needed calm and stability and you know when your back is finally against the wall, the only other way to go is what? FORWARD.I took all the tragedy I experienced as a driving force to do better, so everyday since the 1st of January this year has been a learning curve for me. I woke up everyday, saying deliberately to myself, you're going to do better tonight than you did in the morning. Along this bitter-sweet journey, I have met amazing people, some of which I've fallen out with, yet, I'm grateful that our paths crossed. I have reached out to people (as many as I can remember) who I've hurt in the past and I have tried to fix things. Hitting rock bottom basically helped me focus on all the areas of my life that needed adjusting. I can say without an iota of doubt that the intentional, however painful journey of 9 months has finally come to an end and the only reason I'm sharing this here, is because why not? If I could share the bad and stories, why not share the good ones? That way, you have a wholesome feel of me. The probable question on your mind is, now that I say that I have experienced happiness, can I tell the difference between where I was and where I am now? Absolutely! I am in such a stable place; stable mentally and stable emotionally and to me, that is all that matters because that is something I had hoped to achieve for a long time now.This was my story before the big brother house: The story I told in the house that got me in trouble, lol, the story that got me labeled with so many funny and colourful names but one thing is clear; going to the big brother house coupled with my story earlier this year only equates one thing for me and that is MISSION ACCOMPLISHED.Adekunle healed, Adekunle grew, Adekunle overcame, Adekunle rediscovered himself and Adekunle became better.I will leave you with this and I hope you take it to heart because I’m a living testimony (which is what I asked God for the most this year). To as many of you on your own individual journey, trying to figure things out but it seems like there is no headway, or even if you are trying to find your own happiness, DO NOT GIVE UP! As long as you stay true to yourself, and the course, you'll surely get there. One thing again is sure asides death and taxes, The road to finding self is yet a long one ahead, and the journey to self discovery is one you have to take on your own.P.S: as TASKUNLE, LOL, man's not broke anymore, and my story has changed.Thanks for reading. I remain the Elder-statesman.